I’ve always thought life would be tough after leaving my parents house, but nothing ever prepares you for the real world, or its stresses. I always thought that achieving the American Dream wasn’t out of your reach if you wanted it enough, but shit happens. Nothing has happened the way I thought it would when I was younger, this includes motherhood.
I’m a stay at home wife to a hard-working husband & a mom of 2 wonderful girls that’re a handful. It took me forever to get here with my family. The hubby & I went through years of heartache & financial insecurity. When we wanted to start our family, I got diagnosed with PCOS, Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome. I had 3 miscarriages, 1 of those was a twin pregnancy & it was ectopic. I finally was able to carry our oldest to term, she was definitely our rainbow baby! Then before our oldest daughter turns 1 we find out we’re pregnant again, this time we weren’t trying for a baby. Our 2nd daughter, the pot-of-gold baby, was born when our oldest was just 20 months old.
I’m now living day-to-day trying to figure out a new normal. The oldest isn’t quite 2 years old yet, still teething & just beginning her tantrums & sassy comebacks. The youngest is almost 3 months old & already starting to teeth, but also has other health issues & really horrible separation anxiety when she’s not being held. We also have a 6 month old chocolate lab puppy, male, who’s a major handful & a teething nightmare. Then there’s the cat, male, who thinks he’s the blasted king of the world! Enough said there. The hubby works his butt off everyday, between 8-16 hours during work days, to provide a comfortable home for us.
Life sure isn’t what I thought it would be, but it’s my life! Now I’m hoping I can find the calm in the everyday hectic life…maybe help others get there too.